Being an atheist is hard, especially at the ripe young age of 14.
I have been told by many to accept the word of God and ask for forgiveness. I instead pose a question to all Christians: Does God forgive all who ask for it? If, say, the shooter at Newtown asked God for forgiveness, would he get it? Would God allow such a terrible person into heaven? Or would he disregard this mans plea?
I would hate to spend eternity in heaven if every murderer who claimed to have seen the light of God could also gain entry. But, if God refused this man, isnt he condemning a faithful child of his to eternity in hell?
Neither of these Gods sounds like the one for me. They both have made a mistake, and neither will get a convert out of me.